Yoga teachings opened my mind; the Buddha Dharma whispered life wisdom to my heart.
Moments of intimacy inspired me
Sexual intimacy played its role too, but the game changers were the everyday moments; connecting with others, talking, sounds, touch, smells, tastes, all of life. Even momentary freedom from my fear, loneliness and “not mattering” stories, meant I was available to be intimate with every moment. Present to the process of knowing.
Awareness changes everything
I shifted into periods of intense practice. I was inspired to continue this dissolution process. Anything that was stopping me from being intimate with myself and life as it presents itself was on the table.
Intense practice periods allowed me to break down my walls of defensiveness; to be ok with the vulnerability that allows intimacy. This was something I feared and craved simultaneously. I had previously never been able to make sense of this polarity. Now I was diving into the paradox through practice.
I soon moved through the eye of loneliness, to a beautiful aloneness. In this awareness, I felt in tune, connected and present to what was happening within me; trusting this connection was also with all beings, I was comfortable to be me, with all of life.
I was now satisfied with being heard, and seen, and mattering to myself
My own inner courage and trust in what I knew to be true led me through many tricky situations in life. However I now felt grounded in my practice and the teachings. I had strength within from the tools I was using. A warehouse of wonder, I was guided to respond compassionately and honestly to what was in front of me.
I could see radiance reflected back to me from all that I came in contact with
There were times I reached out for therapists and felt incredibly supported. They reflected back to me, the depth of knowing in my own being.
It is all in here, all of what we need
Embodying and trusting this evolving, unfolding, un-doing process, while sharing this with others, now allows me to feel an intimate connection to life. I am inspired each time I remember to notice it.
Remembering and noticing matters
Bridging this perceived distance or separation between heart/mind/body is what these practices of yoga and meditation deliver to us. Together we heal, nurture, enable, embody, evolve and thrive.